life is growing complacent. i am happy and everything is basically good, but i need something more meaningful, worthwhile, an achievement or competition. i cant come up with anything though. school is unchallenging, teachers are too distant to engage in conversation. i feel like i am going in circles because i have no new input, or not enough. wheres mr. river for a good argument when i need him? or mr. kern to make me feel as if i know nothing? what happened to the days when i was learning about the world? ive learned so much about myself and life recently that i am glad to know, but i want more knowledge now, not wisdom. i need to get away and start something somewhere where i feel i am making a difference. but life is so good here i dont want to leave anywhere...i havent written here in so long...that i dont feel a part of it anymore. even though you probably dont know me, whoever is reading this, maybe you can help...i need somehting to make my life less complacent...but i have no ideas...please?